I am shocked.

If you can't read it click here.
And before you start wondering why I posted this..it has nothing to do with the main idea of the comic..it's what Heart says in the first box..SHE SAY'S HOT CHOCOLATE! I don't even know how this is possible. Apparently while I thought I was making myself a unique phrase it is actually being said all over the place..well at least in 'Heart of the city'. I guess it should make me feel good.

Hmm, I should have copyrighted it. =).

In other news. This morning I set my alarm for 7:30. And when it went off I didn't want to get up so I kept pressing snooze. And my snooze is only like two minutes so I kept pressing it over and over and over for like half an hour until finally I turned it off. I guess I will start getting up earlier tomorrow.

Oooo and I want to share the best food item ever! Well at the moment at least. Home made egg mcmuffin. I have a certain way of doing it and it tastes SO GOOD. And it makes me feel better when I think that it must be at least a little healthier than the McDonalds one and I use real cheese instead of processed.

My Weekend.

Soooo, I kind of went out for dinner last night. By myself. Its was fun. I had steak. It was Good.
I took pictures. To prove I was there =).
Then today. I made cake. Because I just like to chillax on Saturdays.

Hannah went cheesecake CRAZY!!

T.I.L.T.

1.Earl Grey Tea.
2.Grapefruit juice.
3.Going to the library at night
4.Books

Pretty much the best series ever..

Annnd now I happen to have all four of them so if you want to read...just ask.

:)?

Well, here is the tale of my love/hate relationship with caffiene. 
So yesterday I had coffee during my break..even though I knew my mom would kill me because last time I stayed up til all hours of the night. 
But did I listen to my mothers wise words? Of course not. The whole point of Teenagerhood is to do the same thing over and over again even though you pretty much know in your head there will be no change.
So I tried to go to sleep at like..1..and it didn't work so I finished my book..tried again. And then cleaned my closet out..tried again. And at this point I was so tired I didn't want to do anything but try to sleep but it was impossible. So long story short. My night was really crappy. Especially cause the sleep I did get was in stops and starts and in the time I did have I had really wierd dreams. 
So Hopefully I have learned my lesson this time.

But yeah. I really would like to go to bed right now but I'm staying at Behn's house tonight and there's still tons of people here. 

1. Height? 5'4
2. Have you ever done heroin? ..No?
3. Do you own a gun? I am not allowed to.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Depends what kind of docter.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Yummy..If cooked properly.
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?? Oh Holy Night.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? COFFEE
9. Is your bathroom clean? It's superduper clean right now cause I just exploded a can of comet in it..well pretty close anyway.
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?My promise ring.
11. Do you like painkillers? I heart Tylenol
12. Do you have A.D.D.? [Attention Deficit Disorder] Pah no..well not usually.
13. whats your name? ..(To protect paranoid me) Haelle
14.Middle Name? Elizabeth (Stalkers can't track me through my middle name can they?)
15. Favorite singer of all time? Don't know
16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: Water Pepsi..orange juice
17. Current worry? If I will get my school done in time
18. Current hate? The fact that I am ballooning..
19. Favorite place to be? ................................................*Shrugs shoulders* Who knows
20. How did you bring in the New Year? That was so long ago I cannot remember.
21. Where would you like to go? England
22. Do you own slippers? No..I never wear them when I do so why waste space.
23. What shirt are you wearing? A black one.
24. Favorite color(s)? Lime Green
25. Would you be a pirate? HECK YES
26. What songs do you sing in the shower? All types..
27. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? I have no fear :P
28. Best bed sheets as a child? What? who remembers things like this?
29. Worst injury you've ever had? I had some injury involving me head..aha that explains some things... =)
30. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2
31. Who is your loudest friend? I don't want to be the judge.
32. Who is your most silent friend? My friend Macey..she's actually invisible..noone else can see her..or talk to her..strange.
33. Does someone have a crush on you? I think so.
34. Do you wish on shooting stars? I never see them
35. What is your favorite book? Can't think right now
36. What is your favorite candy? Fruit gushers even though they are considered a healthy fruit snack.
37. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? The hampster dance..as I'm walking doen the aisle.
38. What song do you want played at your funeral? ...I haven't thought that far in advance
39. What were you doing @ 12 AM last night? Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
40. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? That I was actually awake not like the half asleep zombie that I usually am.

Nummy!

This is what my brothers missed out on. They were invited to come over for supper but nooooo they didn't show up.. Too bad for them :).

First pink shirt in like 2 years at least.

Things I Love Thursday.

1. Singing into a microphone
2. Tin roof Sundae Icecream
3. 'Sidney White'
4. Practicing parallel parking with a lawn mower :P
5. Waking up in the morning and knowing you can sleep longer.
6. Homeschooling.
7. Being skilled at things
8. Garlic.

a Picture Post.

39 DAYS!

Better start reading that young drivers manual..if I can unearth it from all my stuff.

Useless facts,.

So in another random searching on google I found this place that shows famous people with the same birthday as you and such..To tell you the truth I was trying to fin Madonna's real name and I discover that that is her real name..who knew(That was rhetorical please don't answer and prove you are smarter.).

Anyway.

Famous People with My birthday:(I only wrote down the ones I knew)

Peter Jackson

John Keats

People that died on my birthday:

River Phoenix

Henry Houdini

Famous people with my name:

Hannah Dakota Fanning(And that is one that I can say I knew)

People born in my year:

Miley Cyrus

Nick Jonas

Demi Lovato

Dylan and Cody Sprouse.

So yeah I am back from my weekend away..it was fun. And..even though I promised to take pictures I only took one..well I didn't even take it..the nice man in the blue(?) shirt did.

T.I.L.T.

1. Earl Grey Tea.
2. Baking(again.)
3. Comfortable clothing
4. Talking..like actually real talking..not that fake stuff that everybody does all the time.
5. Not having to work for a week, well six days.
6. Getting away from it all.
7. Rain
8. Having a new message on facebook.

Allright so I'm gone now.
Until sometimes Sunday.
My feelings on this trip are mixed but I'm sure it will be very fun..and expensive anyway I will take pictures..though why you would want to see pictures of my aunties getting drunk off wine tasting is beyond me =).
Love you all!

A nothing post.

My realization for the day: It seems so much more dangerous to speed in the van rather than the car..I mean it's just normal in the car..in the van I fond myself doing the mom act where I grip onto the door with both hands and scream at Cade to slow down.

I have a vase. In my room. In it I put loose change. It is my special savings for that night out. dining at a restaurant by myself. But the process is slow going, since I only put pennies dimes and nickels in it. And I do most of my paying by debit. I am at 1.80 now. Oh well that will make that dinner so much more deserved.

My little Merlin

Ack! I have to wake up at 6:30 tomorrow morning.
I don't think I'm going to make it.

T.I.L.T.

I have not done this in a while.
Randomly getting a number.....15.

1.Baking
2.Chocolate Kisses
3.Slacking off all day
4.Having fun
5.Texting(it's true I'm addicted)
6.Black kittens named Merlin(to be introduced in a later post.)
7.Staying up til three in the morning doing school and excercising
8.Vaccuming
9.Picnik
10.my XL blue plaid pj pants..and they have a hole :(..sad
11.Our new answering machine message.
12.My bangs..they are actually quite sweet (thank you Heather)
13.Shrek
14.A certain line from freaky friday(=P Love you Kandace!)
15.Bunnies.

For those of who do not know T.I.L.T. stands for Things I Love Thursday.

My bestest friends..

Breathe..just breathe.

I am usually a nice person.
I don't usually get mad but this makes me very mad.
The fact that I bought a cd and then after a couple times of listening to it, it disappears.
I could probably kill something right now.
And I have looked for this cd so many times.
LSGHAEKLURGGQIEORgu
FRUSTERATING!

A load off of my shoulders.

Whew, I finally got my laundry done.

That laundry that has been hanging around

since the end of camp because I just didn't

feel like doing it. Trust me it was a big job.

But I was in a very..wierd mood today.

I actually wanted to do things like that.

As well as laundering I cleaned my room..

and vaccumed,I cleaned my bathroom,

I cleaned the van out and vaccumed that.

I made cookies which, usually I can't eat

my own baking. I know that sound bad

but even though it tastes good I don't eat it..

but this cookies were so good I have had

like four.

And I did some school.. watched a movie.

That, peoples was my day.

Tomorrow will probably be more of the same..

Except, I start work again tomorrow.

It is kind of freaking me out but I am sure I'll do fine.

Let's talk art.

So, first I have this funny story from camp.
The last week I was there I was assigned to be the teacher person for the drawing class. I was in shock after hearing this because if you know me at all you know I cannot draw/paint/be artsy in that way at all but never the less the director put me on it anyway.

I was pretty mad but what could I do. So my drawing class consisted of me telling the kids that they knew more about what they were doing than I did so they could just freestyle, and then I would blast disney music for the rest of the time. Some of them like the whole not having to do anything..some didn't. I didn't really care.

So anyway(this is leading somewhere I assure you) even though I am talented in that area I am somewhat okay in the area of crafts more like making cards and decorating..but the annoying part is it comes and goes. It frusterates me.
But it was one of those days today so I redid my room..noooo not that drastic but I did make some changes. I did take down all the 'POTC' and Avril Lavigne posters.

That is basically what I did today..I did do a wee bit of school.

Here's some pictures of what I did. This is the start of a project..I just didn't have the supplies to do anything more.

Hi, my name is Haelle(Name has been changed to protect little innocent me from all the creepers who could be reading this..you know who you are.)
And this is my last year of mandatory schooling. Now really that should make me happy I mean nine more months then I'm out, free to do whatever I want. But the reality of the situation is..it scares me.

There is no way I want to be out in the real world fending for myself having to make grown up decisions. Heck, I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I am literaly freaking out like all the time thinking about these things..yes I know I still have a ways to go but if you don't know me then I'll clue you in on a secret.

I am a worrier. Yes I will admit to it. Those little things that you never think about? I worry about them. Also, I get embarassed real easy but we don't need to go into that. Hmmm, I just lost my train of thought..I don't even know where I'm going with this.

Enter into the picture: God. Let's go over the basics. God is the best thing that ever happened to me(Fruit Gushers came in second :). He has a way of making me forget everything that was worrying me before. I love that about him. At camp we had this part where we were supposed to think of what he is in our lives(Example:Savior, Father Ect.) first thing that came to mind was Friend. Unlike others who maybe judge at times..maybe not purposely but come on we are all humans here, he never looks at the outside or dwells on the stupid things we do but instead looks at our heart.

He knows me. He knows what I hide away from everybody and he is there to comfort me when nobody else can understand what I am going through. I love him...True story.
And so even though I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I don't care I will leave that up to my father in heaven seeing as he's been planning this since wayyy before I was born.

And now I am going to post this before I can look back and think twice about what I said :P.

Well, I'm home.

Of course..I get home and I take up residence in front of the computer. The camera happens to be right in front of me..Well duh you have to see the new me that is changed by ten straight days of working with kids..trust me that is a forced smile :P.
Anyway I will talk about camp later.
One new note. I have a bit of bangs..you can kinda tell from the one picture..not much but a whole lot more than I have had in like at least 4 years.

Can you say 'Thunderstorm'?

Well the weather is not looking good at this point.
It has been raining all day and just recently it started thundering really close to here like...2 miles away if that counting thing actually works..I dunno.
So, This next camp starts tomorrow and it is TEEN CAMP. Funny thing is I am a junior leader and these kids are aged 13-16 so I am hoping the campers will think that I am older than I look.

I don't really have anything to say...Just wanted to pop in and check on everything.

FIVE MINUTES LATER!

So I didn't have a story then but I have one now. How quickly things change.

So after I wrote that and everything I needed to go the bathroom..and they are downstairs and I didn't want to go all the way down there(I know..lazy me.) So I decided that I would go in the cooks bathroom which is offlimits..long story short...
Its an old door that has a key for it on the inside...I locked it..took the key out...after couldn't get it to unlock the door again..really scared as there is only a tiny window that backs out onto nothing..
Yeah temporary Panic but then I tried to calm down and I got it after a few tries..
Wheeeewwww that scared me so bad.

Boy Band Version:

So, since I am just a bit behind..I bought two! Apparently they are both self-titled, such a stupid idea.
To tell you the truth I have downloaded the Boy like Girls cd only because I couldn't find it for the longest time. And that is the truth. Kris didn't believe me when I said I would buy it in the end but I proved him wrong.
So yes the BLG is really good. Top 3:The Great Escape,Hero/Herione, 5Minutes to Midnight.
Simple Plan...this CD was bought because..it was there and I do like there music usually.
Top 1: When I'm gone. But as I was skipping yesterday I liked what I heard so it should be a worthy purchase.

Bleh..

So I get home. Go to youth.
Have fun with Kelsey.
Next morning wake up to go throw up my stomach. Yes I know not too pleasant.
So all today I have felt pretty sick. But regardless I went to the mall..got some new flipflops since my pair right now are positively disgusting. Walked down to Walmart where my mom was..the walking was a bad idea. Got 2 new cds but I think I have lost track of my new years resolution.
Came home did some laundry, watched family channel for the first time in a long while..and basically hung out.

Tomorrow I don't have much planned and then I leave again..Fun Fun.

Paynet(the t is silent)

So actuualy compared to spring break this summer has been really easy.
My girls have been good almost all the time.
And yeah.
I do have a break..I can't really remember when..from like next wednesday so sometime after that I can't remember so yeah I will come home.
It's funny cause I started out in the beginning waking up at like 5:30 and then I decided that no there really no point to that so now I just wake up at 6:30.
Oooo and...so as soon as I got here like a weeks and a half ago. I got a cold..I know it sucked and so I had that all happen and then something else happened..and then on sunday I wake up...and tada I have pink eye. So I was like all ready to go home and they said I didn't have to that I was still in a cabin..Umm excuse me Pink eye is really contagious. But anyway so yeah I am glad I didn't go since this week has been really fun.
So that's it for now.
I will see you soon.
Unless you are a stranger.
And you live in Alaska.
All right bye.
Oh yeah..you guys have to keep blogging because I need some source of the outside world.

Camp. Is. An. Experiance.
So yeah I don't want to talk about now.
Since there is not much time. And this internet cuts out so quick.
So I'm alive.
Just barely 'cause I am sick but you know I will survive.
So Cha Email me cause my inbox is looking a little lonely these days.

I'm back!

So yeah, I decided I am not going to write about Haiti.
If you want to know, ask me.
Mwuahaha I feel so evil. I don't care if I am not going to be around for you to ask me. If you really want to know it can wait until I get back.
Which brings me to the next item on the list.
I am leaving around 8 tomorrow morning. For camp. I don't really know when I will be back..probably not 'til sept. but you never know. I could come back on a weekend sometime.

So yeah if I get the chance I will post at camp.

..You could write me a letter but..no. At camp if you get a letter you have to do a crazy stunt for it. I have bobbed for apples and eaten chocolate covered marshmellow candy dipped in mustard and ketchup before.
So if you go to the trouble of finding the address and everything then you are allowed to write me. Just don't put my name on the envelope. Put 'Tink'.

So yes. It's going to be pretty crazy. I am super excited, but I will miss y'all.

Keep Blogging. I'll just have to have a reading blogs fest when I get home.

Friday Fun!

So today has been pretty good.
Well, the first bit was really bad. There is someone who really annoys me at work. And yeah it was getting me down but thankfully it was only for a little while.

Then Nadine picked me up and we went and cut my hair!!!!!!!!! Whoot..Well it is a change. And I haven't had my hair cut in so long so I was a little scared, but it turned out really good.

So, she dropped me off at the bank and I got my american money for the trip. And I started walking to Tim Hortons\Arby's. A little over half way Behn pulled up beside me. Turns out he had been on the highway going to the grocery store but since he is such a nice brother he came
back and drove me the rest of the way. Which is good because it was stinking hot.

Ooo another story. It starts a while back....SOOOOOO like over a month ago...more like threee...I really have no idea. I was at thrifties and I see this cool shirt but I have so many clothes I decided not to get it...well I regretted it so the next time I went back I was prepared to get it but it was not there. AWWWW, Next part of the story. Today Amanda(So sad it was my last day working with her..and prolly seeing her too.) Was wearing the shirt. So jokingly I asked her if I could have it. And she said yes. So we traded shirts.

Now I wearing it and it smells of perfume which is wierd cause I don't wear perfume but it is nice.

Anything else to report?....I like Silken and Kandace's laptop..esp. the keyboard of it. I heart Laptop keyboards.

Okay. So when I get home I will..put the before and after pictures up.

One Final Post.

Well, I don't really know if it is but I just want to say that in case I don't do another one before I leave.


So this is called live blogging people..posting while the event is happening. In this case:Silkens Birthday party.
It has been fun so far, I actually got to eat a hamburger(Inside joke.)
Yes good food is the highlight of any party.

Anyway, I have been absent for the last little while. Not really my fault. I kind of forgot about blogging for a bit. Maybe because I have been working my butt off, but I don't want to talk about work right now.

Last night was the youth grad dinner. It was as I suspected it would be, but the real fun part was when me and Kelsey when for coffee after..I always have such a good time with her.

Yeah , I can't really gather my head enough right now to write decently but I figured it was time for an update.

Today was my Saturday. I slept in til 9:45 which is the first time for me to sleep in for at least 3 weeks now..CRAZY.

And even though I should have done school I just cleaned my room and started packing for both camp and haiti.

DOODEEDOODEE...can't think of anything else.

:(

I am so glad I only have 25 days left until camp.
..And only 7 more days of work. I am so ready to be done.
Today I sort of broke down..and was crying all over the place.
And I had to clean bathrooms which just made it all the worst.

My 4th Child.

Hannah's Brilliant weekend..

*The weekend begins with Hannah's parents and two brothers leaving for Vancouver for the weekend, and a couple hours later Cade leaving for band practise.*
Okay so, I was feeling pumped about cleaning so I started cleaning the house. I thought for once I could actually see what it's like to clean the house and have it stay clean for more than 5 minutes but as much as I wanted to see that dream come true I got distracted with other things. Good things of course. Well, for one I made some cookies for the spaghetti dinner. And watched the family channel..but it was educational..not.

But one thing nobody really knows about me is: I HATE being in the house alone. There sort of is a reason but hah I am not going to tell you.
Anyway this time I decided not to do what I did last time(watch a scary movie, and before you ask me which one it was I will admit it wasn't really scary but I never watch these types of movies so it was creeping me out.. 'Angels Fall')

So I made sure all doors were locked. And then because I was going to be downstairs and I probably wouldn't hear Cade knocking I made a sign to put on the upstairs door.
"If you are Cade or Friends/Family go to the downstairs door and knock real loud. If you are a murderer/rapist/robber: I have weapons."

9...10..11...Cade still wasn't home I was getting scared and then I heard some knocking...and I slowly peered around the corner and...it was Cade. I don't really know what I would have done if it was anybody else.

So that pretty much concludes Thursday.

FRIDAY: Woke up at Six, had a shower got ready went to work..
Work was usual if I remember correctly. But it was that part after that was not the best. So Phyllis*manager* had a gift basket for me(for spaghetti dinner) And I had my backpack and my purse both weighing tons(sidenote:I am a terrible packer I usually bring stuff I know I won't need but maybe just maybe..)
So I set off from Tim hortons..I could just feel peoples eyes on me. I looked pretty stupid. I had to stop at the bank which was embarrasing. The teller person is one of those ones who doesn't know my name but wants to be friendly so after I put my bank number in she looks at me information and starts calling me Hannah, personally I hate it when people do that, especially at work.

So by the time I get to the church I feel pretty gross and I have blisters on my feet from wearing my shoes improperly.
But I get put to work right away. And then the rest of the night is just moving along.
I don't really want to talk about that part. I shall just skip ahead. I got dropped off at Behns by Angela. Then I watched about 15 minutes of a Jackie chan movie before I decided to go to bed. I am telling you the truth when I say it took me half an hour to fall asleep because my body hurt so bad.

Woke up at six. since I didn't really have anything to do I just walked over at like 6:30 and had a bacon 'n egger from A&W for the first time. I kind of don't like it how they make those things with hamburger buns but after you got over that fact they are good.

Work was semi okay. Now that I have worked with older people during the week I feel as if all the school kids are really immature. Haha I know that is pretty funny. Anyway I had conversations with my manager Julie about dead babies and killing monkeys and the only downside really was my aching body.
But that got worse.

After work Matthew picked me up and we went grocery shopping so much fun. I heart coopers. It was interesting to see what Bachelors eat..it wasn't to far off from what I expected.
Went back to Behns house I watch tv for a bit. We went got some dinner. Dorve up to the theatre to see that the 7:15 showing of Kung Foo Panda was sold out so we(me Matt, Cade, Tim, Josh, Paul C., Paul A) hung out at Future shop..went to Walmart and bought a soccer ball and then played soccer for a little while..well they did. I just watched.

Then watched the 9:25 showing of previously said movie. It was pretty good.
then I was going to stay at Behns again but Cade didn't want to be alone in the house. So on the way home we were totally scaring ourselves so when we got home we inspected all the rooms and closets locked all doors closed all window hangings and then stayed downstairs the rest of the night. Of course it was mostly Cade.

Woke up the next morning but not to my alarm clock..I started panicking had I missed it? had I turned it off was I late..then I looked at the clock 5:40. Oh my goodness I get precious little sleep as it is and now I am wasting it.
Work day number 4: was terrible my back and knees and feet hurt so much that many times during the day I had to kneel to relieve the pain for a bit.

After work Cade picked me up and we went home and the parents were home!
Then I went to have a nap at like 4:30 and I woke up the next morning at six. Fun Fun. At least I felt rested. And monday was a real good day of work. I had so much fun.

After work I walked over to Arbys and did math while I waited for Cade to get off. Then I came home did random stuff and that people is the end of my weekend.

Too Tired.

I want to give you all the details of my weekend but I am too exausted right now(the fact that I am tired and I just had like 15 hours of sleep might tell you something about my weekend in itself.)
Maybe later today.

Believe them if you want..

A man named Charles Osborne had the hiccups for approximately sixty-nine years

Goldfish remember better in cold water than warm water.

You are more likely to be killed by a champagne cork than a poisonous spider!

J. Edgar Hoover liked to fire FBI agents whose palms were sweaty when shaking hands.

Bananas aren’t fruit! They are a type of herb.

On some Caribbean islands, the oysters can climb trees.

Flamingos can only eat with their heads upside down.

Under extreme stress, some octopuses will eat their own arms. ]

Napoleon constructed his battle plans in a sandbox.

In ancient China, people committed suicide by eating a pound of salt.

Termites eat wood twice as fast when listening to heavy metal music.

Cats make over 100 different vocal sounds; dogs can make about ten.

Apple seeds are poisonous!

Brad Pitt has been smoking since the sixth grade!

The giant squid has the largest eyes in the world.

Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.

More people in China speak English than in the United States.

Children are more allergic to cockroaches than they are to cats!

Going, going, going...

So, Today I have been going nonstop since..2:30.
I had my guitar lesson. Mom and mrs. Coulter were shopping for the silent auction on Friday so I went over to Mcdonalds and tried the new iced coffee's. One word: Don't. I don't even know I did since one of my customers at Timmies had told me they weren't good but I have to do everything for myself. Well it wasn't that bad but I don't think it will be a regular of mine.

Then we went to the coulters house to arrange baskets.

Came home. Made supper. It was actually pretty good. Chicken Caeser Salad and potatoes, and they both counted for school. Then we found out that our insurance guy was coming over and my mom was doing nothing to clean the house so I took it upon myself. I didn't want to be embarassed. So I cleaned like a mad women. Then after he left I cleaned some more. Now the downstairs actually looks presentable.

Now I need to go do laundry, clean my room, get ready for tomorrow and about a billion other things.

Well, so, hmm,
Since I am going to Haiti and camp this summer I booked the whole two months off work. Which means no pay coming in, which means no money to pay for all the food I will need to buy on the weekends if I stay at camp. And various other things so I did the only thing I could do, request more hours at work.
So now I am working 30 hours a week. It is pretty crazy. And the confusing part is it is all different shifts not the regular 9-2 or whatever.
I started this today. Had to work at 8:30...my mom wakes me up at 6:30 AHHH
I was so tired when I got home I had a nap on my bed..they ate supper without me..my favorite, tacos..then I had a nap on the couch.. So I am hoping my body can get used to being woken up early or all the afternoons and evenings of the days I work will be useless.

At least I will be able to buy my acousic guitar.

Stupid lyrics won't straighten out.

So, I hate it how there are those songs that play on the radio for a while and I like them and all but then they aren't new and popular so they disappear and I forget about them.
That is my thought of the day.

Bad Day-Daniel Powter


Where is the moment we needed the most You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost They tell me your blue skies fade to grey They tell me your passion's gone away And I don't need no carryin' on You stand in the line just to hit a new low You're faking a smile with the coffee to go You tell me your life's been way off line You're falling to pieces everytime And I don't need no carryin' on Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day The camera don't lie You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day You had a bad day Well you need a blue sky holiday The point is they laugh at what you say And I don't need no carryin' on You had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day The camera don't lie You're coming back down and you really don't mind You had a bad day (Oh.. Holiday..) Sometimes the system goes on the blink And the whole thing turns out wrong You might not make it back and you know That you could be well oh that strong And I'm not wrong So where is the passion when you need it the most Oh you and I You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down You sing a sad song just to turn it around You say you don't know You tell me don't lie You work at a smile and you go for a ride You had a bad day You've seen what you like And how does it feel for one more time You had a bad day You had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day Had a bad day

TILT

So I haven't done this in a while.
Two reasons.
1. Forgetfulness.
2. Usually when it comes around I am not in the mood for loving anything.

But here we go.

1.Crayola
2.Rain
3.Random

Yup thats about it. Or at least are the biggest ones popping out at me right now.

Need kickboxing lessons.

So I bought some books on the way to Herald park on Thursday just in case things were slow.
The one I started first was a murder mystery about a pedophile.
So I gradually read it over the weekend finishing just after I got home on Sunday afternoon.
Okay second part. Since I had been constantly eating the whole weekend I felt very fat and I needed to do something physical so while my mom was at her bible study on Sunday night I went for my usual Tim Hortons walk. Wow, I was so creeped out by everything on that walk. I mean I usually am a little paranoid, but that was times ten of what I usually feel.

When I got to Timmies I was healthy and got a buttered bun and only two timbits.

When I was telling this story to Kris at my lesson today he suggested I carry a pocket knife with me at all times. I think I like the kickboxing idea better.

Boys like Girls

'The Great Escape'
I am still addicted to this band.
And this song makes me smile everytime.

Manic Monday.

So yesterday was alright.
Church.
Bought a 25 dollar phone card since living without my cellphone was getting hard(I know I am sick).
Hung out at Juniper park for a while.
Went down and walked from Behns house to Timmy's and back..While I was there I got somebody to take my Thursday shift so I can go to Harold.
Then me and Matt went up to chapters where I bought a book for *Free*(Giftcard). Then I bought a mocha frappicino for *Free*(Ditto).
But I realized I am not one of those types who can go to Starbucks and read. It was so hard to concentrate with the music..and other people talking. And I kept checking the time sure that a while had passed and it would be like 3 minutes.
Anyways, then we(Me and Matt) went down to the theatre saw 'Prince Caspian'...and I got that free with my scene points too.
The movie was..well not that good. First of all they hardly followed the book. And way not enough fight scenes I mean come on.
Yes I could expand but I do not want to go into detail since there are still people who haven't seen it.
So this morning I got woken up and told the phone was for me.
It was Phyllis..asking if I would come into work at 1 instead of 4. Of course I said yes. But it will be my first 8 hour shift in a while.

Oh, Wow.

There is really no explanation to this day.
It started at eight..! Krystin phoned..and I agreed to work tonight. Wasn't the number one thing I wanted to do on a Friday night but I didn't have anything else planned..and the terrible thing about it is I would have cancelled my plans.

So then I was up and I couldn't fall asleep again so I did school. Made muffins.
Then had a long nap..Killing time basically.
Went to Timmy's picked up my check went to the bank..shoppers drug mart. I always have fun in shoppers. Then I walked back to Timmy's.

I don't want to go into all the terrible details of myterrible day but I will say I worked 6 and a half hours without sitting down..It was a freakshow. Since our store closes at 11:00 now everything has to be stocked and cleaned for closing. Before it wasn't a big deal cause night staff could do what we missed but now it is pressure all the time. The last two nights I worked I stayed at least 10-15 minutes late. CRAZY!

Now I go to work again tomorrow since I am so nice and took Darien's shift..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh.

Okay enough ranting for today.

Belated C.D.O.T.M.

So I am a little late since this is Aprils edition but better late than never.

OK... So first C.D. Is Marie Digby-Unfold.
And I actually discovered her off of Youtube. I think I started by searching Umbrella then I went to Umbrella covers and found her. She actually has the cover on her CD.
Um. Yes not really sure about the music yet. It's mostly slow..relaxing stuff.

Number 2.
I just went into SoulSource yesterday for the first time. And since they are closing down all of the stuff is super cheap so I picked up this C.D. it was 4.99. I thought even if I don'tlike it it was super cheap so who cares..well when I went to pay for it it was only 2.80..Even Better!
So yes. Kristine Martin-Valley Deep. From what I have listened to so far it is very not me but the whole idea of this was to expand on my music so here I gooooo.

I promise you the May issue will be in May.

Over the halfway mark!

Well, I am officially less than 6 months away from getting my 'L'.
Which means I better start reading the book and practising.
Even though I don't really want to drive I know if I don't do it right away it will just make it longer to get the full license and everything.

And that's all I want to say right now.

It's amazing how you can be in an extremely good mood. Well, not extremely but close.
And then one little thing happens and even though I wish it wouldn't it justs puts me back to where I started.
(Breathe..don't cry.)

Friday Morning I was excited.

I went to E-free church and babysitted with Silken. That was fun, and I got paid.
Then me and Kandace went to 'Made of Honor'. We had been looking forward to it so it was a little disappointing when it wasn't how I thought it was going to be. But it was fun just doing something with Kandace since sometimes we can go weeks without hanging out.(Awww you better feel special Kandi!)
Then I had an adventure with the McIssacs where we drove here and there and everywhere(Slight exageration) trying to find Amanda and her friend.
So by that time(7:15ish) I was really tired and exasperated and a whole lot of other emotions.

When we got to the church I just was there for a short bit because me and Nadine left to go to Cade's show. That was good. I'm glad I went.
Got back and played DDR and did henna.

Then got a ride over to Behn's house with Rebekah and stood around outside while everybody tried to break into Cade's car because he had locked himself out.

Went home. Watched tv and talked to people on the computer just so I could prolong the time before I would have to go to bed and then leave the house the next day.
SATURDAY:
The Haiti meeting..went as planned?
Nothing really to report about that.
After me and Kelsey were going to go mothers day shopping but some events made me decide to go home. So mymom picked me up but she had to go to coopers. I was mad and sad(bad comination) and taking it out on my mom and I kind of realized that 'Wait tomorrow is mothers day. The day to honor my mother..it's not really good to be getting in fights just cause I'm not having a good day. So while she was in coopers I decided to ask her to drive back to the church so I could go with Kelsey. (Funny side note. We went by the flower section in coopers and she commented how pretty the pink lilies were..So I bought them for her later when I was with Kelsey.)


Spending time with Kelsey can make me feel better no matter what mood I'm in so that was one of the reasons I went back. To start off we went to SWISS PASTRY TO SEE NADINE!! So much fun. I had never been there before so it was cool to see what they had and well to be honest the service wasn't the best. My waitress ate some of my drink, patted my head(!) and listened in on our conversation...haha Love you Nadine.

Then we pretended to be sophisticated and tried to shop downtown but didn't turn out so well.
Wal-mart was next where we picked out some garden flowers for Mama Baerg and then Coopers and my house.

On the way to my house we were trying to figure out how to get the flowers in without my mom seeing them. We got pretty into it. But turned out we didn't need a plan cause my mom wasn't home.

So with flowers safely in my closet with the door shut I bid Kelsey farewell.

SUNDAY:
Nooowait back up
SATURDAY AFTERNOON:
I made the card and coached Noah and Sean to say "Happy Mothers Day Mom I love you" and made everyone sign the card.
SUNDAY:
Okay, so even though I had it drilled through my brain and my brothers I forgot to do the speach for my mom when she woke me up..of course I was half asleep so you can't really blame me.
But Sean and Noah did alright even though S. did skip out on the I love you part.
Then when she wasn't looking I sneaked the chocolates and flowers onto the deck and the rest is history..haha.
Church=The best thing ever... I LOVE it when mrs. Hayes talks.
Lunch @ WhiteSpot=Sort of wierd but very good bonding time...and lots of memories were talked about.

Afternoon @ Grama's=Good since I get to hear all the latest news about..basically everything.

Walk while my mom was in her bible study thing=I am so paranoid. I kept thinking that the people walking/biking behind me are really rapists/murderers..

Walked to Timmies. Cleaned up the storefront since it was gross. Spent a lot on food. Went back to the church...waited for my mom. Almost got home before we remembered we had to pick up the boys at Behn's house.
Came home watched Tv..
YOU ARE NOW OFFICAILLY CAUGHT UP.
EXCEPT....I am not going to tell you what upset me just now. But it wasn't that big so.

I work tomorrow.
Tuesday I hopefully get Merlin.

AAAHHHHH!

To say I am panicking would be an understatement.
38 days.
Until I should be done grade 11 but I tell ya the math situation is not going so well right now.
38 days until my summer starts and I am busy for two months straight.
38 days until I am supposed to have raised 2000 dollars in order to go to Haiti.
38 days until my last summer as a high school student.

So I am having to re-evaluate how I spend my days putting school at the top.
And examining where my money goes..since I have to save uppppppp tons so that I can make it though the summer.

WHeeeww so much fun.

Attacked.

Well, today, did not go so well.
I moved onto a new term in school which is good because there are some things I actually want to do.
Then I went to my grama's house to clean cupboards again. It did go quicker than last time but still.
Then I went to work. I knew it wasn't going to be the best of days since I don't really get along with the people that were there but..when I was on my break..at like 7:30 somehow the two boys got started talking about how I was a Christian and all that..
I'm not going to get into detail...partly because just last week I signed a paper which said I can't badmouth anybody at work on the internet. But they were really mean..and part of me wanted to like argue with them but I knew I would probably start crying if I did, and they would ignore it anyway.
So I just ignored them instead and talked to God in my head. It did make me feel better which reassured me since lately I have been feeling..questioning? I don't know. Not doubting..that's the wierd part. I never doubt that there is no God, it's just usually I feel that I am unworthy and I won't go to heaven.
It's confusing I know.

Ahhh.
It feels so good to not post.
Even though I have tons of stuff I could write about, I am not.
It's as simple as that.

TILT

1.Chicken Clubs.
2.Clean rooms
3.Butter Tarts.
4.Grocery Stores.
5.The Library.
6.My friends from work
7.Scramble when I win.
8.Having my cellphone back.