Breathe..just breathe.

I am usually a nice person.
I don't usually get mad but this makes me very mad.
The fact that I bought a cd and then after a couple times of listening to it, it disappears.
I could probably kill something right now.
And I have looked for this cd so many times.
LSGHAEKLURGGQIEORgu
FRUSTERATING!

Going, going, going...

So, Today I have been going nonstop since..2:30.
I had my guitar lesson. Mom and mrs. Coulter were shopping for the silent auction on Friday so I went over to Mcdonalds and tried the new iced coffee's. One word: Don't. I don't even know I did since one of my customers at Timmies had told me they weren't good but I have to do everything for myself. Well it wasn't that bad but I don't think it will be a regular of mine.

Then we went to the coulters house to arrange baskets.

Came home. Made supper. It was actually pretty good. Chicken Caeser Salad and potatoes, and they both counted for school. Then we found out that our insurance guy was coming over and my mom was doing nothing to clean the house so I took it upon myself. I didn't want to be embarassed. So I cleaned like a mad women. Then after he left I cleaned some more. Now the downstairs actually looks presentable.

Now I need to go do laundry, clean my room, get ready for tomorrow and about a billion other things.

Oh, Wow.

There is really no explanation to this day.
It started at eight..! Krystin phoned..and I agreed to work tonight. Wasn't the number one thing I wanted to do on a Friday night but I didn't have anything else planned..and the terrible thing about it is I would have cancelled my plans.

So then I was up and I couldn't fall asleep again so I did school. Made muffins.
Then had a long nap..Killing time basically.
Went to Timmy's picked up my check went to the bank..shoppers drug mart. I always have fun in shoppers. Then I walked back to Timmy's.

I don't want to go into all the terrible details of myterrible day but I will say I worked 6 and a half hours without sitting down..It was a freakshow. Since our store closes at 11:00 now everything has to be stocked and cleaned for closing. Before it wasn't a big deal cause night staff could do what we missed but now it is pressure all the time. The last two nights I worked I stayed at least 10-15 minutes late. CRAZY!

Now I go to work again tomorrow since I am so nice and took Darien's shift..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhh.

Okay enough ranting for today.

1. I made cookies, cleaned my room, cleaned the living room and some of the kitchen, dusted, had a nap, did all my school, organized the cupboards, watched some star trek :).
   
   Every time I go on to the computer I spend about 5 minutes checking email and things like that and then I get off.
   It has freed up a lot of time but I don't know what to do with it.
   
   Hmm.
   
   

*Emotionally gone*

I think I have been to busy lately.
And it's drained me.
Yesterday was pretty terrible.
The last bit of it was.

I was just so tired.
And then after youth Ryan dropped us off at Behn's and we stayed there until 12:30.
So I went and laid down on Behn's bed.
*Note to self:Tell Behn to buy new bedding. He has had that stuff for like 6 years and it's all gross.*
Of course I couldn't fall asleep because right above me they were playing a movie really loud.
I don't see why the neighbours haven't complained yet. Unless the walls are super thick.
But finally I sorta fell into a half sleep. And then I heard that everyone was leaving so I went upstairs.

But I figured out the reason so I think I am going to be better now.

Meh.

I have been doing alot of thinking lately.
Not about anything in particular, about everything really.
But nothing has come out of it yet.

I don't really do anything these days.
I do my school by 12 have lunch and check my email and I am done.
So I sometimes just lie around because I feel as if there isn't anything for me to do. But there is.

There is alot that I should be doing that I am not and the other way around as well.

One bottle of pop. Two bottle of pop. Three....

I have been finding these past few days that I can't read.
Everytime I try I can't focus. And I will go do something else.
Which makes me very sad.
I love reading.
When I was younger I would go into the library pick out..over ten books and have them read way before the next library day.
But now I have a stack of books in my room and I can't even get through the first one.
*Sniff*

Guten Nacht.

Yeah. You didn't think I actually knew words from other languages but I do.
Wow I feel strange right now.

I actually took German when I was a wee thing thinking that I could learn and then speak to my cousins in a foreign language. Actually we had plans to lear italian so nobody could understand us but that never worked out.
I have pretty much accepted that I can't learn another language.

I feel kind of obligated to blog because I have everyday of this month except one. I think.. I don't know.

I made some cookies for our neighbours because he shoveled our driveway with his lawnmower..
They are really easy.

One chocolate cake mix
2 eggs
1/4 oil
and three skor bars chopped.
Then you mix those together and bake in a 350 degree oven for roughly ten minutes.

I got it out of the 4 ingrediant cookbook from Betty Crocker.

Did you know that in Adventures in Oddysey their cookbooks are made by a woman named Becky Rocker or something like that. I will find out.

I am going to bed.

Blogging..

Such a wierd word.

It's ten so I should get to bed.
Believe it or not I have been waking up at 8:30, this is like amazing for me.

But brief update.

Umm I worked yesterday instead of today. Was actually terrible.
Today I had my guitar lesson. Which did not go as well as usual. And for the rest of the day I did little things. Nothing signifigent.

But I have been getting all my school done, which is quite a change from what I usually am like. I think I will actually get Grade 11 done this year. But this is speaking from my second week of it so I couldn't really judge.

Tomorrow. I guess I will go to youth.
Yeah you haven't really been missing out on anything.

Bedtime.

Here I am,
Procrastinating the schoolwork..again.
But I am on track so I deserve a little break,
at least that's what I am telling myself.

Last night.
I didn't want to go.
But I did and for the first part of the night I was just blank and not doing anything.
But then we were put into small groups and I was scared..haha I hate having to pray in front of other people that might sound bad but I seriously can't do it usually.
But last night my group just prayed for each other and it was fun.
I was relaxed.
Until I messed the whole thing up by praying for starbucks cards(don't ask.)
But it was good.
Something all of us needed.
It's good to do that sometimes.
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So for school I have my history and my bible study thing on tapes and each are an hour long.
If they expected me to sit for 2 hours listening to these tapes they were wrong. So I started cleaning my room. That got me through the first day. And I have to do this every day.
Already I have vaccumed cleaned my closet gone through everything I own that is in that bedroom. Even cleaned my part of the bathroom.And that's all just in three days. I am going to have to think of something constuctive to do while I listen. I was thinking of moving it all over to the kitchen and then I could bake. That would be killing two birds with one stone.
I don't know.
But as long as this is going on I am pretty sure my room will be spotless and I will have my clothes and makeup on at a decent time in the morning. I guess this is a good thing.
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Typical Day.

I did almost all my school.
But I had to leave early so that is my excuse.

I went to walmart. On a mission.

To make up the ultimate best friend package that I could.
Of course it didn't turn out so awesome as I sorta felt rushed for some reason so I didn't give the idea much thought I just went here and there picked stuff out.

But I tried to pick stuff out that I would be happy to receive.
My mom asked me what the occasion was. No occasion. Friends are just supposed to do things like this.

It's not a bribe to try and make you forget what's in the past.
But to celebrate the start of what's to come.
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Me and Kris talked today.
I am probably be bringing in one of my songs next week.
That's a probably not a defenite yes.
I just sorta cringe when I think about it.

But this means that...
1. Yes I have gotten a new Cd this month
2...I have worked more in some of the areas I like not as much as I wanted to though
And 3. I am starting on the whole recording songs bit.

So I am doing good for the first 15 days of this year. Let's hope I can keep up with it.
Oh yeah and I told Kris about my resolution so I basically have to do it now.
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I need to go finish school. Especially since teen class starts on Friday so I can't do school all day then.

(Hannah)

School Pressure

I have so much school to do.
I have a feeling that I might have to quit something in order to get it done.
Calculations say that I will have to do 3 hours and 45 minutes each day. That is a lot people.

But I will still blog for you people. If you are faithful enough to read this then you must be rewarded.
Of course it might not be very exciting seeing as I won't be doing much but I will try.

Uh-Oh.

She found me out.

Her Blog is now set to "This blog is open to invited readers only".

Hello. The whole point of a blog is so anybody in the whole wide world can read it.

Toot-Sweet

this feels kind of wierd.
I am typing this entry in Behn's house.
Today has been eventful.
But lets talk about yesterday shall we?

I woke up at 5:30.
Packed my stuff up and we went.
I didn't fall asleep.
We got there. And it was dead.
I had to go through the Skipatrol door because Bento's wasn't open yet.
Waited there for a while and then went to get my pass.
Had to pay a whole 15.75 for it.(Contrary to popular belief we do not get them for free.)

Went back. Waited around for a while longer.
Finally decided to brave it.
Got my stuff on.

It was actually...Painful :P.
The first few runs were torture.
My legs don't like being in the ski boots.
But after I while I got used to it.

But at lunch I decided I was done.
Well in my mind I knew I should go out again but I never really got around to it.

Then my dad came in for lunch at 2 and said there were lot's of patrollers so we could go home.
We stopped for gas and then we went to walmart. He made me stay in the truck because the skiis were in the back.

We went home.
Had supper then I passed out on the couch.
My mom woke me up at 11 to say I should take out my contacts. Then I went to bed.

Today was church.
Then we had a haiti meeting after that.
After we raced home. Got some better shoes and then drove down to the petrocan were Kelsey picked us up.
Then we picked up the Hammonds and went to Sahali.
The hike was awesome.
So much better than last time.

And now I am here. At Behn's place. Just chilling out.
Hmm maybe I'll clean.

Nothing post.

So one of the reasons I have been posting alot is because a couple days ago I realized I only had four posts for the new year and I kinda like to have it so the days of the month and the number of posts are even..well so now I am going to be two days ahead but oh well.

I am going skiing tomorrow for the first time this season.
I wonder what it's going to be like. I am going by myself but I kinda like it that way because then I can go if I want to and I can take breaks whenever.
I might just have a short day so I am bringing tons of books because my dad has to stay there until the bitter end.

Me and Jess went to Alvin and the chipmunks today. Well. At first I thought it was terrible. Well it was but there were a couple times when I laughed. And it's not like we could have not gone. This is ALVIN we are talking about. We have so much history with alvin.

When I went to the mall yesterday I got some jeans as well. I know now that I am a 27. Well 26 too but the 27's are nice and loose.

When I got home from the movie theatre I arrived to find KFC on the counter. I asked what had happened and my mom explained that she hadn't felt like cooking so she asked dad to pick something up.
?????????????????????????????????? She has not done anything like this in the history of my existence. And why did she have to pick the day when I was full from popcorn and candy?

thanks y'all for commenting.
It does brighten the spirit.

Personal note to Kandace. POST SISTER!!
Where have you been the past..(pauses to count.) 8 DAYS!!
In Hannah time thats like 8 years.

Scary/Exciting.

You see, the littlest things in my life can be scary such as today.
Just now as I was on the computer I saw a truck pull into out our driveway.
And a man walked towards the door.
Mom and Sean are gone so the only ones awake are me and Noah. And I couldn't really have sent Noah to open the door so I did it.
It was a package guy. And I signed for the package. Wow.
Haha you might not think this is so important but it is a first in my life.
It took me a while because his little electronic signing device wasn't working properly. And my signature did not look at all like my own but oh well.
Which brings me to another resolution.
I want to try and do a first every week.


And then there's this.
I have been wanting to blog about this for awhile but I just kept forgetting.
About a week after Mexico when I was finally going through my bags I found this.
Well. At first I don't think I realized what it was I just thought it was one a the random papers that I brought back but then when I was going through those random papers I read it. Oh my gosh shock of my life. Why they had to check the bag that was the messiest is a mystery. I felt kinda embarassed for myself.
Next time I will 'try' to keep my bags in order.








And lastly. as I was browsing through blogs and doing random things last night I came across this.

I don't really understand it. I kept thinking it was fake and so I waited for the next screen to tell me the joke but the next screen never came. Maybe if I clicked on it. Or maybe it is actually real.

YES!

I need to have more days like today.

Random. Trying new things. Very fun.

So today after church me Kelsey and Cade went to help some people from C+C move. But by the time we got there they had packed everything up. So we drove down to their new house to unload. But the people who were supposed to give them the keys weren't there so we waited. And waited. And then decided to go to lunch while we were waiting. So we went to Wendy's. And ate food. And then on the way back Cade was driving 4 people that were older than himself. It was funny they were all pretending to critique his driving skills. But it was slightly embarassing because our van is so messy.
When we got back the people still hadn't come so we decided to leave and we went to the airport. Yes we did some mighty strange things today. The reason we went is because Kelsey had never seen it before. And because Ryan Unger was going to be flying in. Ryan C. was there to pick him up but we sorta didn't tell him we were there. And every time he looked our way we would turn around so he wouldn't recognize us. It was fun. And we ate tic-tacs. And the Ryan U. came and we stood around for a while. And then we went to visit Angela at work! It was a new experiance because I have never been to Arby's. It looked..nice :). The reason we went to visit her because supposedly she was getting off at 4:30 and we wanted to go toStarbucks with her but no. She said she had changed to 6.
Hmm. So Cade andKelsey got this wierd idea in they're heads that we should go visit Grandparents.Wow. I have never done anything like that in my life. Our grandparents live on the same 'street'(it's not really a street butI forget the name) So first we went to Kelseys for a bit. We basically just stood around and talked. And we found out that they were going to Kelsey's house for dinner so we didn't really need to visit them. And then we went to ours. There we watched the Ending of 'Flicka'. But it's actually a good thing that we went because it turns out that we were supposed to have dinner on new years day but I work so I can't go. So at least I got to see them.
Then we went and dropped off Kelsey.
And then. We were almost home and. WE HIT A DEER! As soon as we did I phoned home so that Dad would come but there wasn't any damage to the van andwe couldn't find the deer so I told them to stay. But I want to go tomorrow and look around. Right after it happened we saw some other deer crossing the road so I think it might have been alive enough to keep going.
And that was all for my day.

(p.s. it's too late to apoligize)

Lot's of thoughts going through my brain right now.

First. Hello you guys I would appreciate some comments once in a while. Okay and don't even bring up the fact that I don't comment. I just can't it's phsically impossible.
And if you really don't like it I will change from anonymous love notes to something else. I am just really happy I found out how to spell anonymous. Unless that's not how you spell it.

Okay. I have been feeling in the chatty mood right now. Like I want to talk and stuff with people so I am actually going out of my way to like email people. It's almost scary.

So me Cade and Sarah went over and hung out at Cassies house tonight.
It was really fun. Of course we didn't really do anything. Just prankcalled people and played redneck games. Before I went over I was a little worried that it would be awkward but it was okay.
And so since it was all the barnhartvale people we phoned Tim to see if he wanted to come. Cade explained that Tim didn't pick up the phone when he was alone and so Cassie left this hilarious message thinking he would be hearing it. But then we discovered that Tim's at homewood so yeah. If his parents are home they'll probably be wierded out. Of course Cassie didn't say her name. She didn't say Tim's name either. Anyway I am proabably confusing the whole matter up/

So I finished Gilmore Girls today. And it is actually quite sad because before when I finished one it was okay because there was always a season after but this time it's actually the end.

*Gasp* it's been four days!

So right now I am in the flighty blog mood.
Like I will talk about one thing for a bit and then move onto something else so a normal post has like 20 different topics.

And(I was thinking about this beforehand so don't laugh) I was like wishing I was good at writing so my posts didn't turn out like crap all the time and then I was like well it wouldn't be good because I wouldn't want a career in something like that(pardon to all you..writer type people out there.) But then I was like well maybe if I was good at that subject I would want to do it and so problem solved but then I was like well I have tons of talents right now..which I know I should be probably using but I don't see where they could work and everything and yeah.
So I am probably confusing you. I tend to do that. As since I don't write good it doesn't sound at all like I wanted it too. But I don't really know what I was trying to say in the first place.

Like Art. I seriously have a handi-cap when it comes that that drawing and painting stuff. Like I can see it in my mind how I want to do it and everything then I try and all fails. The only thing I could do was my sesame coloring book. I would outline the edges with marker and then fill in with crayons but then I lost the book. That was very sad. I cannot find it anywhere. I think it happened when we moved.

So, I am thinking about a lot of things right now.
And watching a lot of Gilmore Girls, I even got my mom hooked on it.
Which reminds me..the thinking part.
How is it that when you just want to sit and think about things you always have something to do. Or like dreams..you always get woken up when you are having a good dream but the day you sleep in you have nothing at all. And when you just want to sit and think you have nothing to think about. It is really quite frusterating.

So maybe maybe maybe I might get my laptop this week. Of course the fact that I have not done my school is kind of in the way but I am going to try and convince the mother that she should buy it with boxing week sales so it is cheaper.
Which reminds me. A while ago I asked my mom if I could move the piano up to my room since nobody played it down there. I didn't really get a response and that was months ago but I think it was monday. Or maybe Sunday...My mom said totally out of the blue that if I could make a space for it in my room then we can move it up there.

And you might have noticed that I have not talked at all about christmas.
Well maybe it's better that way :). No, it was good.
Christmas eve: I worked. And it was different because all the staff were cleaning everything(yes this is very unusual) and it was so busy, I kept wanting to shout at all the people to go home and be with they're families. I got the 'privelidge' of sweeping and mopping the front area. And I actually got to put all of the chairs ontop of the tables like I see A&W doing all the time but I never had. Krystin said we would close the front of the store at four but we never did. I was disapointed because I wanted to laugh at the people when they tried the door and it was locked.
So clean clean clean. as it was starting to get close to 5 we got rid of all the food so when people cam through drivthru they're choices were limited to pretty much coffee. Well any drink. And then after five we cleaned some more. And then all the regular staff was waiting around while the managers did stuff. Because we were supposed to all leave at the same time for safety reasons.

Finally at 5:30 Kyrstin asked Ken if I could leave since I had to be somewhere and I left. Straight to the church where I changed and practised up with the choir.
The service was good..I don't really like Dougs choice in music. Hello! The candle lit part is supposed to be to silent night or something not some song nobody ever heard so we can't sing along..or the wierd version of..I forget the name.

Anyway. When we got back home we were supposed to open one family present and be done. So we had already figured out the aunties presents 1.Chocolates and boardgame 2.Chocolates and boardgame 3. Chocolates(we even figured out what kind) and then we finally opened it next morning it revealed a giftcard to the white spot.
So we opened A. C. first *Note we got so many boxes of chocolates it was astounding*
It was pot of gold and Are you smarter than a fifth grader. Well we didn't really feel like playing that game so we convinced my mom we should open another one.
Next A. J. This time a Lindt box of chocolate and this 1 vs.100 which actually it turns out is another tv game show. Well we didn't really want to play that one either but we did anyways *Note Why does Christmas have to have so much chocolate when I don't like it?* And then we played AYSTAFG.
So after that Dad Sean and Noah went to bed but Cade started to try and guess his present from Behn by feeling it. He couldn't guess so I was like hey i'll try so he handed it over and I am feeling it and all then all of the sudden I'm like wait a moment I already know what it is I saw it at Behn's house. It was pretty funny.
And then Matt Me and Mom opened ours from Behn. Mine was Gilmore Girls 7 which is the best present ever because I have not watched this season yet and I have been waiting to long. So my last48 hours have been full of it. So after watching to episodes I decided I would sleep.

Christmas Day: SO every year I am so excited I cannot sleep all night. And I wake up every ten minutes check the clock go back to sleep. GUESS WHAT! it didn't happen this year. Maybe the fact that I went to bed at like 1:30 had something to do with it. Sean and Noah Woke me up. They had the nerve to do it before 7 like hello why am I going to get up when I know I am going to have to wait anyway.
My hair was really puffy because I had left my hair up the night before thinking that maybe it would stay up so that I wouldn't have to do my hair. Wrong. It was everywhere but okay.
We opened presents.
Yes I am skipping over that without giving detail.
Then there was that hmm we;ve opened presents what am I supposed to do until three when my cousins get here. I spent most of that time watching Gilmore girls :).
So much time in fact that my mom came down and told my that my cousins had been there for 45 minutes and I hadn't realized it.
So I went up.
I ate nuts and drank punch. There is always that awkward part with cousins that upi haven't seen before in a while. You barely like talk and then all of the sudden your talking and smiling..maybe.
Then we had food and we went down to watch POTC 3 which I kept falling asleep in and I kept wanting to go over to Mathews bed because it was close and I didn't want to go upstairs and accidently get into a conversation when all I wanted to do was sleep so I just closed my eyes where I was in the VERY uncomfortable posistion.
And when they had left I went and crawled into bed at 6 it was only supposed to be a nap but I was really tired. But I slept with my contacts in. :(.
And then today was watching Gilmore girls and eating left overs I really need to go to bed so sorry for speeding off but Bye.
PS. I was thinking about the fact that I have terrible titles for my posts. I can never think something good up.

HAPPY.

Hmph. I am thinking I should probably do some christmas baking.
But I don't feel like it.
We don't usually do any.

So depspite the fact that I have been planning and buying gifts for the past month I still need to get some.
Frusterating.

I have been really paring down on the blogs I read. Because awhile ago I stopped reading blogs because it was such a big job and it would take me forever. So now I have really cut back. Don't worry, if you are reading this you are still on the list. Unless I didn't know about your blog in the first place.

So my brother Matthew has decided to go to Ireland for a while. To 'see the sites' but I think he has other motives. :). So he's going to go for like 8 weeks I think. Starting in February.

Yesterday my mom took Spenser to the SPCA. It was the right thing to do seeing as she wasn't getting much attention here.
But I really want a cat named Merlin now.