We'll call it unique.

It seems like life has been going out of it's way to prove to me that I am unusual.

Conversations with people have led me to that conclusion.
And looking at myself has led me to the same conclusion.

Perhaps it is my massive love for lists.
Yes, I know there are many people who love the writing out and crossing off of lists.
But do all of these people plan out their entire week, complete with what they need to think(!) on certain days, and literally scheduling in when they can relax. Okay that last one may be true for more than a few people.

But as I was thinking(thinking? Uh oh, I didn't schedule that in.) over this fact this evening I figured something out. 1.I cannot live without a to do list or schedule. 2. This means all of my days are always planned. 3. Which means I never have an allotted time to rest or do nothing. 4. Which means when I do these things during the week or on the weekend I always feel guilty and not really relaxed. 5. And it also means that since I procrastinated the to do list, it doesn't ever get fully completed resulting in 6. Me feeling disappointed at the end of the week. But 7. Starting the list for the next week to start the cycle all over again.

Not totally like that..but very close. And I'm not sure what I gain from telling you this, because I am still very confused about the whole thing, but maybe you have suffered from a similar situation and can lend some advice my way.