The Confession: My addiction.

Now, this addiction might be a little rare. Not one you really hear much talk of these days.
But that does not mean it isn't a serious problem and should not be dealt with.

I am addicted to.........dying my hair.
Don't laugh, this is a severe issue.

Let's look at the facts:
1.My hair takes at least twice as long as the average person.
2.I get bored, so I like to switch things up frequently.
3.I am sick of having the same black hair that has been around forever due to fact number one.
4. I have like an inch and a half of roots right now.
5. RED! EW.
(I don't even know if those facts make sense. I'm tired.)

So once again I have recoloured my hair. Although I never make the mistake of permanently dying it anymore. I only do temporary ones that will last up to 28 washes.

Anyway, here is the latest turn out.

BEFORE

AFTER

The inspiration just isn't there.

So.
I have been asked to put up more pictures.
But.
They won't be amazing.
I just haven't felt very creative with my camera lately.
And being stuck in the same place for a long period of time isn't helping.
Don't get me wrong, Homewood is a BEAUTIFUL place.
But I'm getting cabin fever.
And taking a picture of the same view for the fifth time is getting old.















It started snowing this morning and it has been snowing ever since.
There is so much of it everywhere and it is the best for packing.

I went sledding with the Harder boys at like 9. It was great.
I felt five again.
I ate snow, made snow angels, facewashed people, facewashed myself and went on a stealth mission. It was so fun.
That is all.
G'night.

A little confession, anyone?

Do you know what I love?
When listening to a song that I have heard hundreds of times, I hear a certain line of the song that I have never been able to understand what the singer was saying before, and all of the sudden everything makes sense. It makes me laugh.


Speaking of music.
I'm sort of a music blogging hypocrite.
Okay, that isn't the right term for it but I'm not too sure there is a term for it.

You know how everybody always shares youtube videos of their favorites songs on their blogs?
I, myself am guilty of this.
What I am also guilty of is never actually listening to these musical selections.
I know that a lot of people don't, though. So I don't beat myself up about it.

However, that does not stop me from posting my own suggestions since maybe somewhere out there one person might actually press play.

So, here is the song of the week:


I have the CD that this song comes from, 'Save Me San Fransisco', and it is actually one of the best albums I have heard to date.

Oh, and don't feel compelled to listen to the song now that I've guilted you into it..

A Friday morning in the life of me.

I had a bad dream.
I don't think it was bad, but I woke up because of it and usually when I wake up it means my dream was alarming.
Now, looking back maybe it was on the unusual side.

I had a dream about Lions and Tigers and Joel...oh my.

I scrambled around my bed hunting for my phone when I woke up because I'm on kitchen help this weekend and I was panicking that I was late for duty.
But it was 6:30.
Now, a smart person would have gone back to sleep for a whole 'nother hour.

Hannah got up and made coffee for the quilters.

The day can only get better from here :).
HAPPY FRIDAY!

T.I.L.T.

1.Jet smoothies. Not only do they make wonderful take home smoothie packets, but they also give said packets to Homewood employees for free! (I would suggest the 'big bean mocha'.)
2.The confused weather that goes from rain to hail to snow to rain all in the short time of 30 minutes.
3.Having an escape from madness.
4.NEW CARS!!!! I'm so excited!
5.Cheap new cars! (sorry, it's all I can think about)
6.Baking!(now this is just a memory for me now. But a very fond memory.)
7.Warm.
8.Dancing like there is nobody watching.
9.Playing with children.

10.Surprising people.
11. Google images.
12.Working in the kitchen.
13.happy things coming from unexpected places.
14.strange random conversations with strange random people.

If you're happy and you know it, smile.

Today was another day off.
Two whole days off in a row!

I didn't really do anything.
Just read my online book and slept.
And at the end of the day I was actually getting mad at myself for having been so lazy but then I remembered that this entire time I have been complaining about having days off but never actually resting, that made me feel a little better about the situation.

We started a bible study today.
This makes me so very happy.
But it also reminded me of how little time I have actually taken to study the bible.
Sad.

I am looking to purchase a copy of 'the message' though.
I understand it's not one of the greatest translations but I think it's the best for spelling something out plainly in a simple way I can understand it.
But then again sometimes it is even more confusing then my normal translation.

Some verses that stuck out to me tonight:
(they were all from Galatians.)
1:¹⁰ Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

^2:20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. ²¹ I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing!”

^6:1-3 Live creatively, friends. If someone falls into sin, forgivingly restore him, saving your critical comments for yourself. You might be needing forgiveness before the day's out. Stoop down and reach out to those who are oppressed. Share their burdens, and so complete Christ's law. If you think you are too good for that, you are badly deceived.

Ways to make a Valentines Day enjoyable.

1.Dress up and look good just because you want to.
(can't say this is the best I could have been looking but there was a boy around when we were having the shoot and it made me feel awkward to be posing for a camera..cause he was laughing..and being a jerk.)

2.Get the holiday started early by have yummy desserts the night before.

3. Add a little love to everything you do.

4. Go out of your way to make your loved ones feel special. (Reggie enjoyed a nice bath today as well as the redecoration)

5.Pamper yourself, and just do random little things to make yourself happy.

6.Forget societies idea that Valentines Day is for couples and show love to everyone you care about.

7. Watch a super amazing movie that can only get better with every viewing.

8. Use this as an excuse to eat all the stuff that you shouldn't really be eating.

Well everyone, my V-day was thoroughly enjoyable.
And I think it was just my mind set, really.
I went into this day telling myself I was going to be happy no matter what.
And I did everything I could to keep it that way.
Now, normally that wouldn't really work, but today was the exception since it was a day off and I didn't really have to be around people if I didn't want to, or be doing things I didn't want to do.

Happy Valentines Day to everyone out there!

Is the weigh scale even?

And no, this has nothing to do with the unwanted 6 pounds I have put on since moving here.

Today has been a terrible day in some aspects. Resulting in many headaches. Many, many, many headaches.

But other the other hand I had a delicious dessert and a delicious drink that would not have happened without at least one of the headaches.

So, is it worth it?

All I know for sure is I will be having a lot of alone time tomorrow, and the day after.

The thing I love the most.

Getting mail!
And do you know what is even better than that?
Getting a package!
And do you know what is even better than that?
Getting two packages two days in a row!

We got home from the conference on Thursday night and there was something from Bluenotes waiting for me.
And then the next day I'm hanging out in the lodge and Ann the secretary comes up and she asks "did you get your second package?"
I did not believe her.
But she assured me there was another package and it was even too big to fit in my mailbox. So I tore out of the lodge and started running across the field as fast as I could, regretting not having put my rain jacket on first because it was pouring buckets.
I got into the office and there it was.
And I *might* have done a happy dance right then and there.

And it had real fruit gummies which made it AWESOME! And they are shaped like toys!

So. I was happy. And now, in one of my many moments of being frustrated and upset with the world, I am trying to remember back to that happiness because it's very hard to smile with all the stupid people* around me.

*They are not stupid, I just feel that way when I'm in a bad mood.

Ain't no mountain high enough..

I am in a thoughtful mood right now.
Also a very tired mood, but since this is probably my last chance to blog for about a week I am going to quickly type some stuff out.

Hi, my name is Hannah and I want to learn to be sincere.

sin·cere

[sin-seer]

–adjective, -cer·er, -cer·est.

1.

free of deceit, hypocrisy, or falseness; earnest: a sincere apology.

2.

genuine; real: a sincere effort to improve; a sincere friend.

3.

pure; unmixed; unadulterated.

4.

Obsolete . sound; unimpaired.

It's very hard for me to open up to people. Extremely hard.
And that makes it very hard for people to get to know me, (and with the risk of sounding cliche) the real me.

But I'm not very good at understanding myself and so most of the time it's not really my fault.

I'm going to make it my goal over the next few months to begin to get to know myself, and therefor make it easier for other people to be my friend.

In the process weeding out the less desirable qualities I have let myself develop, such as being extremely judgmental and sarcastic.

I'll check back in a while but in the mean time, I've had way too much serious talk for one night.


T.I.L.T

1.Listening to music while writing messages to friends all while sitting at a corner table in Starbucks.
2.Roomie coming home.
3. Having a major hug fest just because Jo-Yo is leaving to go work in the morning, and we were all going to miss her.
4.Texting somebody in the same room as you but pretending nothing is going on.
5.NEWMUSIC I discovered this amazing CD today. It made my heart happy.
6.Being comfortable enough with myself that I go for days without wearing make up.
7.Clean water. I really miss it. The water here tortures my hair real bad.
8.Sleeping in. Anybody dare try and text me at 8 again. I will hunt you down and hurt you. You know who you are.
9.Challenge.


Cuts on the hand are the worst. Since you use your hands so much it takes double time to heal.

We have a group coming in tomorrow, there is 162 of them. This is very major since up until now the biggest group we have had(at least while I was here) was around 70.
So they are here for the weekend and then right after that on Monday we head down to Abbotsford for a Camp Conference thing.

I am seriously considering buying another camera. Heh. I love my new dslr but the problem is it's huge. I am used to having one that I can slip into my back pocket and pull out in a moments time to snap a picture. So, I'll think on it some more.
I am still trying to get an understanding of how that thing works.
I haven't totally slacked off in the learning department, I did read the manual which explained some things but I still have to go through the huge photography book Matthew lent me.

For the most part I am not a neat freak. Well. I don't like to think I am.
But sometimes I just get fed up with anything that is messy.
Which is why I clean my brothers house so much.
Since I don't have a brothers house to clean here, it seems that I have just shifted over to the next available outlet: the guys house.
I was hanging out on the guys side the other day and I just couldn't stand to be surrounded by mess any longer so I cleaned. And then I went back to my house and cleaned. And then I went to my room and cleaned. I guess it helps me? Maybe physically cleaning helps me mentally clean.
I don't know. Sometimes I like to pretend I can figure out these psychology things.

I do need a day to recharge though.
Today WAS supposed to be that.
But Blondie convinced me to come to town, and don't get me wrong I had tons of fun. But this entire time I have been getting more and more worn down. I have had some mini crashes along the way but I'm sure if I don't take some time to chill there will be a major explosion coming up.
I think one of the problems might be that I don't even know how to relax. It's never been a huge issue because I have never been in this situation before. But I am always surrounded by people here and always doing things. Hanging out with people takes a lot out of me. And when I am in Kamloops all I have to do is go home and I get away from it for as long as I need. Here even when I come home there is people and so I never get that away time that I need. I am learning to live with it, and I think I am doing pretty well so far.
I think tomorrow since I will probably wake up pretty early I will take my Bible and some music and go out and practice resting.

Click the link. I promise it will be great.

Is it Christmas?

Picture post for Jill.

Well, mostly for Jill :), I won't mind if other people view them as well.
I forgot that you don't have facebook anymore so you haven't been able to see all the pictures.

A furry looking tree we found while taking a walk out by the ocean.





It hurts more than it looks.