Britt Nicole- When she cries

What's that? You want an idea for giving me a gift with no reason for giving that gift at all?
I would love if you gave me this CD.

Christmas and a little bit of everything.

Okay, I have figured it out. Even when things go good I don't want to admit it so when asked I usually shrug or something.
Well, today that changes.
Christmas was great!(even though I am not a huge fan)
Christmas eve service was good, I sat with my parents for a first time in a long time.
Then after Matthew and Behn came over and we ate and played games and opened a present each. Then I watched a movie and finally went to bed. Surprisingly even though the little boys had planned on waking up early, I was the first of the kids to get out of bed. And we waited a while before waking Noah up.

We opened presents, Then I watched Gilmore girls until we had to leave(which wasn't alot of time mind you).
Me and Behn went to Kandace's to drop off her present then to Behns house to get Rockband.
Then drove over to grama's and opened presents there and then played rockband for the remainder of the time.

Afterwhich we drove back to auntie Vicki's house and played games there, had dinner, opened more presents, had dessert(Ice wine Mmmm), went home.

And that's all I can remember from that day. Well, I do remember staying up late 'cause I didn't want the next day to come.

Boxing Day. I woke up at six. *Groan*. When I actually started working it was fun, I do enjoy working day shift and it went really quick too. Mom picked me up then and we went to the mall. I had never been boxing day shopping. I bought a few shirts, PJ pants and Behns birthday present(Jan. 9 People..).

Today I went sledding, and then to work.

I know it is sad, but true...Lately I have given up caring about friends. Or what I do.

Last time I was at the mall. Which was only a couple days ago, I saw this beautiful pair of pyjama pants. They were lime green and black plaid. It was simply amazing. But I didn't want to spend money so I didn't buy them. I was kicking myself after since they were so perfect.

Then today my mom actually gave me money to buy them and I went in and...they weren't there. :(.

So I'm thinking the green one is going to be my grad dress.
But I haven't decided on a colour yet.

TILT

1.Mystery Book..I am going through a phase right now.
2.Giving people presents..it actually makes me really happy.
3.Christmas(okay now that was heavily sarcastic)
4.Thrifties.
5.Playing Peewee hockey(who knew?)
6.Getting a text(it makes my heart happy)
7.Playing in the snow. I went outside yesterday and made snow angels and traipsed around but it was kind of lonely.
...Okay now I will just list favorite foods cause as weird as it seems this is what I do when I am bored.
Pepsi
Grapefruit Juice
Pizza hut pizza
fruit gushers
those cinnamony twist things you can buy at coopers
sourpatch kids
spaghetti
mr. noodle chicken soup
lipton chicken noodle soup
tacos
taco salad
french fries from mcdonalds....anything from mcdonalds :P
Kisses...of the chocolate variety
chocolate croissants.
black forest ham
djion mustard.
I am going to bed...

Shhh, it's still a secret.

Since I don't think my mom would think to check my blog in the next 48 hours, I am going to tell you why I think that boys cannot anything themselves and always need a woman's supervision.
Hey, I'll even give you 6 examples.
DISCLAIMER: I am not trying to get recognition or be prideful or anything I just want you to know what really happened since I put so much work into this.
Lets start the story off with last year.
Two days ago last year I set off to Kelowna for the weekend, where I bought my mothers birthday present. But since I was so late getting home on the Sunday(her birthday) I did not give it to her until the next day, whereupon she thanked me, started crying and explained that nobody else in my family had remembered.
WOW, pretty harsh.I of course could not let this happen again.
Let me tell you, I was up many night planning and panicking.
So here is what I came up with
Dad: Bring home flowers after work and then the two of them go off to Milestones for dinner( which I reserved for while shopping at London drugs on my cellphone because we only have one phone which is in the kitchen where she is practically all the time)
Matthew: A Painting(I have not seen it yet but I'm sure she'll like anything he paints. Funny story on this one. I needed to get a canvas for him but my mom was going to go to Michaels without me so I asked her to get one. She automatically thought it was for school and the canvases only came in three pack so she suggested giving the other ones to Matthew so I had a brilliant cover for bringing them to his house.
Behn: His is a mystery. He was the only one I felt..moderately safe in leaving him to decide what he gets her. Of course just 5 days ago he was still asking me for suggestions.
Cade: This one was hard to get. A picture frame with a photo of the kids in it. So, I had to decide that we all had to be matching. And like none of my brothers have white shirts so I had to donate some of mine and steal some from dad's closet. It took forever to get them all dressed out the door and in position. Matthew of course had forgotten the memo about the jeans but it's not that noticeable. Once they were in position they kept making fun of the way Alex was taking the pictures and Noah is very camera shy so out of all the pictures there is no single one that has all of us looking at the camera and smiling. This is the best of the lot and the one I picked for my mom.


Myself: Well, by the time I had figured everything else out I had run out of ideas for myself. So mine is a little unusual. 2 boxes of the cake mix that my mom really likes, and a salt mill.
Sean: A box of Purdey's Chocolates which I bought a while ago and put in the freezer so I hope that they turn out fine.
Noah: A set of 4 mugs but they have different van gogh paintings on them so I think she'll like them.
If that were not enough I just arranged yesterday that Matthew and Behn will come over for a birthday dinner on Wednesday so I have to make a cake and spaghetti for that since you can hardly have the birthday girl make her own dinner.
So anyway, there you have. The big \ surprise that I mentioned in a previous post but I don't remember which.
Hopefully today will go well.

So,

I decided since I don't know what to do with my life I need to start trying things out, getting hands on experience on things I might like to do just to see if I actually like it when it comes down to it or if it's more of a fantasy idea.Well, my first career was hairdressing. And I thought "What better way than to cut my own hair."

The results weren't pretty.



Just kidding. Last week, or the week before I was looking at my hair and decided it was too long(kind of that awkward stage where it's too short to go past your shoulders but too long so that it just sits on top. Nasty.) I was going to wait and get my hair cut somewhere but I'm cheap and impatient so I did it myself. It doesn't really look any different. But I guess that's better than looking worse.

I have been thinking seriously about getting it cut short again. We'll see where that goes.

I think God is punishing me.

So tonight Sean made this Ethiopian meal and I ate some but because I didn't want to finish it, I joked that it didn't agree with me.

And now I am experiencing intense pain in my abdomen.
It's just a wee bit ironic.

I guess this is supposed to teach me to not waste perfectly fine food.

I have not been feeling well today so what better to than....:
1. Watch girly movies(never been kissed is such a cute movie)
2.Clean my room
3.Do laundry(50 pieces even and two dimes to boot)
and anything else the day has in store for me such as...working :(.But it's with two of my favoritest people ever so it shouldn't be that bad.

Mlargh

Alright. first order of business. Egg Nog. Bleck. Haha, I try it every year just because maybe one year my tastes buds will have changed and I will like it. But no. Milking it down is okay but still not my kind of drink.

I ran out of Tylenol like yesterday. It's really sad. I mean more the fact that I could down a whole bottle by myself. Of course I was not the only one who consumed them. Cade and Kandace were partners and probably other people. But I just got a new bottle from above the oven. It doesn't have many so if I say I finished that one in the next couple of weeks don't be surprised. Also I didn't like the bottle of the new one so I just put the pills in the old one.

My body hurts.
Aches.
I don't feel like moving.

Stupid Kandace for getting me sick. :). Yes I am blaming it all on you.

So Monday was FUN! First we went to the E-free church(me and Kandace that is) and planned our duo. It was brilliant I don't know why we didn't go through with it.

Then we went to the mall. Nothing really productive came out of that trip. Nope, we did visit Josh 3 times. Mainly cause we had nothing to do. And I looked at hockey sticks, that was cool.
But pretty much the best part of yesterday was...I rode the bus. For the first time ever. It was epic.
We went to Kandace's house where we madly had dinner, did dishes and got ready.
Then we went back to the E-free church for like the 15th(?) annual presentation night.
It was funny. I had some good laughs. But it did not awaken any memories. I guess the homeschool group is just that different now.

When I got home I started the debate about starting a Grad '09 band. The results were positive. We actually have the right number of people evenly spaced out. And pretty much everybody doubles in something else so that will come in handy.

So, yes, I'm sick. Today was..ewww. I felt so bad that when I got home I had a nap. And that means something because I usually only have naps on Sundays, if ever. Headaches are the biggest thing. Some of them are so bad I think they could be considered migraines. And the runny noses and the plugged ears. And chills. And body aching all the time. And my eyes hurt. And my forehead is hot, but that could be from the headache. Sore throat. My voice sounds like crap. And my nose is raw from blowing it so much. =(.
So I probably won't go tomorrow night. We'll see.

Bored...Procrastinating

1: Spell your name without an E,S,H,I,M,A: NN
2: Are you single?Yes, well at least that's what you think :)
3: Favourite number?I don't really have one. It used to be 64
4: Favorite colour?Green
5: Least favorite color?Purple, or yellow
6: What are you listening to?My two little brothers talking
7: Sins?too many to count...
8: Are you happy with your life right now?not really no.
11: Do you shop at hollister/abercrombie/AE?:like once a year
12: How do you make money?By being brilliant and lovable
13: Where did you graduate from?haven't yet
14: Are you outgoing?With people I know, yes.
15: One word to describe you?CRAZY
16: Do you like Big Macs?Never had one.
17: Do you own big sunglasses?Of course, they are like a staple in everybodys wardrobe.
18: Where do you wish you were right now?Heaven
19: What should you be doing right now?School
20: Do you have a crush on anyone right now?Well, no not really.
THE CAN'S:Can you blow a bubble? yes
Can you do a cart wheel? no
Can you touch your toes? yes
Can you whistle? yup
Can you wiggle your ears? no
Can you wiggle your nose? how do you wiggle your nose..are we talking about the obvious here? I guess..
Can you roll your tongue? yes
THE DID'S:
Did you ever want to be a doctor? A nurse
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? Heck yes. I still sorta want to.
THE DO'S:Do you know how to swim? yes
Do you like roller coasters? Never been on one. I am deprived
Do you own a bike? NOOOO I don't think I ever really have. I just use other peoples
Do you think you could be on those reality shows? wouldn't want to
THE DOES':Does hair loss run through your family? nope
Does your car get good gas mileagm? I don't really pay attention. The car Cade wants to fix up for me could get 50 miles to a gallon(apparently that's good)
Does your family have family picnics? no
THE HAVE'S:
Have you ever been to the ocean? yes
Have you ever gone fishing? Well, sometimes at the lake I do.
THE HOW'S:
How did you find out about Facebook? David
How many of your friends on it have you seen? Alot
How much money do you have on you right now? Like $10
THE LAST'S:Last thing you said out loud? "Sean come do pushups with me"
Last thing someone said to you? "Help me clean the living room"
THE WHAT'S:
What was the last restaurant you ate at? Timmys if you call that a restaurant. Milestones.
What was the last thing you bought? An apple pie from A&W
What was the last thing you had to drink? water
What was the last thing you watched?The latest Hannah Monatana episode
THE WHO'S:
Who is your newest friend you added to Facebook? LeAnne
Who was the last person you IM'd? .........*Shrugs Shoulders*
Who talked to you on the phone last? KANDACE
Who was the last person you took a picture of? ...Ummmmmmm People at the lockin..I can't remember the actual last picture
Who was the last person to leave you a comment? On here..Ummm...Anonymous. But I know who he/she is.
SELF ESTEEM SECTION:Is your self-esteem extremely low? Sometimes
Do you believe in yourself? Sometimes
Do you wish you could be someone else? Sometimes
CURRENTLY WEARING:What color shirt are you wearing? Green
Shoes? none
Jewelery? ring
HAVE YOU EVER:Hugged someone? Yes
Been on the phone until the sun came up? No
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? I don't think so
CURRENT:Current mood:Blah
I'm listening to: Talking
Maybe I should: do school and get ready to go
I love: Being crazy
I don't understand: Math
I lose respect for: Certain people that I cannot name
The meaning of my screen name is: My name?
Love is: distant
Somewhere someone is: thinking of me?
I will always: have naturely brown hair.
Forever seems like: too far away to want to think about now
I never ever want to: like country
My mobile phone is: Practical
When I wake up in the morning: I wish I would have done it two hours earlier
I get annoyed at: Spelling mistakes
My pet: IS MISSING =(
Kisses are: Yucky =)
Hugs are: comforting
Today I:Will try to make the best out of my cold
I really want: to be done school
I work: with nice people.
I think: I think too much
I smell: the cookies that Sean just made
I listen: better than I talk
I see: Mess
I sing: no. I don't really like to sing anymore
I daydream: not so much
I fall: when I'm skating
I cry: not much anymore
I love: Being with people when I'm inthe right mood
I hope: for world peace =)
I drink: tea
I dream: way to much lately
I have: pen on my hand
I remember: all I have to do today.
I don't: smoke
I believe: in God.
I know: Everything..true story
I hate:you..just kidding

I'm a child.

It's hard to feel like a role model..when you feel like the child that people should be role modeling too.

Camp was weird. I was the one who had to be strong and always happy and knowing all the questions. It felt wrong. :). Especially at teen camp when a lot of the campers were older than me and I was a leader. Of course when put in that position everybody acts a little older than they truly are at least I do. I am pretty happy to say I only had one emotional breakdown in front of kids...
A while ago I got a letter from one of my campers, I then misplaced the envelope with the address on it. Even though I felt horrible because I couldn't reply, there was nothing I could do so I didn't do anything. Then just today I was getting out a book I need for school and there it was being used as a bookmark. So I dutifully wrote the letter. But it was weird..like camp all over again. Having to be responsible. Reading over every line to make sure I didn't write anything that could be taken the wrong way or anything.

I have a theory. I've probably told you guys this but oh well I'm saying it again.
Since I was home schooled I didn't really have any friends my age. I hung out with my brothers and their friends. So instead of growing up at my age I was really growing up a couple years earlier so now I am more mature(don't even laugh I'm still talking) but since I grew up too fast my inner conscious is really wishing for when I was young so sometimes I will be really mature and other times I am really immature I guess. I really hate it...sometimes. I always feel better hanging out with people older than me but in reality it's really weird.
I don't know. Does my theory make any sense. I really need to take that psychology course I think it would help me a lot.

In other news, the lock in gave me a cold so now I feel horrible.
Yesterday I hung out with my brother. And saw the colour he is painting the dining room of the house, it was very nice. I suggested the next thing would be to buy matching chairs for the table.

And it was customer appreciation day at domino's so I went there for the second time ever. The first time to buy something..the experience was pretty cool. I bought pizza and took it over to work. I know..sickk..haha and I cleaned up the lobby and swept til Cade picked me up.

Now I am going to do school then go hang out at the mall with Kandace prolly. I will be sure to take pictures.